Even if I have something to say it won’t matter because the only people who get attention are either the same people over and over again or their work is garbage.
This is a big one for me. What’s the point of saying something if you won’t be heard?
I also do not want to be in the same category as certain artists. Of course I’m scared that that’s where I will end up.
I honestly don’t want to be a part of the art scene that not only recognizes, but celebrates artists who only use shock or gore to attract attention. Unfortunately that’s our society/media.
I know, it really doesn’t matter what anyone else is doing. Art is art because the artist says so. We all get a trophy in art. Except we don’t. It seems that the only people being reward are people who either toe the line (the same artists/styles over and over) or the people who come up with a new gimmick to shock and titillate.
It’s frustrating to try and be different, but not offensive. Or even to be offensive with some actual merit.
And what’s the point anyway when, if you do and are successful, people are just going to copy you. Therefore, diluting your actual message or what makes you special.
As I said, this is a tough one for me.
I want respect, recognition, success. I just don’t want it from the people who are in charge of giving it right now. They are doing nothing to gain my respect. There’s nothing that makes me want their recognition.
There’s really nothing for me to change in this one. At least not at the moment.
I just have to recognize it for the fear that it is and do it anyway.
I will focus on the people I do want respect from. The people who’s recognition makes me proud to paint.
If I gain reknown then it will be my duty to start changing things from the inside. If I don’t, well, that’s quite alright. I can still be satisfied with my work and I will still be successful on my terms, which is the only way to really be successful.
